According to my comment history it's been over half a year since I checked in. And honestly that's awesome. I haven't felt a need to check in, in over half a year! Only randomly thought about it this morning in the shower and thought I'd pop over to my alt account to see how long it's been. Anyways, IWNDWYT!
Going out for my birthday tonight. The menu has some reeaaallly nice dessert wines. Had a thought that I could have one. Just one. It's dessert. It's celebrating. But man I don't even want to tempt my brain and undo months neural rewriting. My mom will probably have a glass. I'm tempted to take a sip of hers to even see if I like it still. This long without alcohol I wonder if it would just taste off. Hmmm. Might be a struggle tonight. I'm going for a run, I'll work on convincing my brain not to do the stupid thing. I'm going to say it here too so I feel like I have to stick to it... IWNDWYT
I started working out when I quit drinking, but the thing I've been eyeing for 6 months now is indoor rock climbing. Problem is, I have no one to go with. I could go on my own, I'm used to doing that for most things... But it just seems like it'd be more fun with a partner. I've looked at phoenix and they have a meetup that does indoor climbing.... But I'm afraid I'm not "fit enough." Anyway thats what I'm holding myself back from. Not sure I'll reach out today, but maybe one day. IWNDWYT
I turn 39 next Friday. It will be my first sober birthday in 20 years. Used to splurge on an Uber / cab so everyone could get hammered at the restaurant and not have to drive. These days I'm the designated driver. Also used to treat myself to a nice bottle of ice wine, something I'll seriously miss. But I'd rather miss my bottle of wine than another 20 years of my life. Congrats on making it through the party sober and happy birthday! Buy yourself something else and start a new tradition! IWNDWYT
This is a perfect post for me today. I'm on spring break, which in past years would have meant excessive drinking and every day spent recuperating and regretting. Then before I'd know it the week would be gone and I would be heading back to work wondering how it went so quick. Not this year. This year I'm enjoying the crap out of it. I'm going to get a massage, work out during the day time instead of at night, maybe sit by the pool, go to a show, clean my house... I have options that I will actually utilize. IWNDWYT
I weather changes better, that's for certain. Sleep better because I'm not drinking myself to sleep also, which I think helps the mindset. Related, I'm having a rough week. But coping. And sleeping. And not drinking. IWNDWYT
My cat has a tumor. I'm waiting on further analysis but the vet says the cells don't look good and it's in a difficult location for surgery. This week is going to be a struggle. But I have to remind myself that alcohol won't save him, nor will it save me. It'll just make me feel worse and miss out on the time I have left with him. IWNDWYT
It's pretty late to be checking in, but I just wanted to say I did not drink today. Got news at 4:30 that one of my cats most likely has cancer. Easily could have stopped on the way home to get a bottle. First time in a long time that I seriously had to fight that urge. It's just past 7pm now though, I've eaten way too much ice cream, and I'm in my PJs. So I'm safe. IWNDWYT
Felt like checking in today, been a bit. I spent last weekend wrangling a dozen teenagers for 4 days straight and I'm exhausted still. I can't imagine how much worse this week would have been if I was drinking. Or for that matter how I would have tried to sneak in alcohol last weekend while on a school trip, because that's the point I think I was at... Sober me makes much better decisions and cares about others much more. IWNDWYT
Took the day off because I'm mentally exhausted. Going to the gym for upper body day, then going for a run. Then I'm going to curl up on my couch in a blanket and not drink because that's my life now and I love it. IWNDWYT
This was the first new years in ages that I actually made it to midnight. Every past year I've been passed out by 9 pm. And today I'm going for a casual 10k run. Because I do that now. Crazy. IWNDWYT
I have my first doctors appointment today. Haven’t been in 10 years. Figured it’s time to stop neglecting my health issues. Nervous because it will be the first time I say “I’m an alcoholic” out loud to someone. IWNDWYT
I almost burst out crying when I went in July (same situation, no doc visits for years and fresh in sobriety). She asked if I was using any program and I said nope on my own, and choked back the tears that I still don't understand why they came. Anyway I'd always rather know than not know, and lucky for me the blood work was good. Good luck today. IWNDWYT
I'm almost at 6 months free. I'm also going to a work happy hour thing tonight. I do not want to drink. I want to hang out for an hour or two, then go lift some weights. And so that's what I'm going to do. IWNDWYT
Check out smart recovery meetings too. They have multiple meetings a day online, and often focus more on tools you can use to quit and stay quit. Good luck tomorrow.
I did it! I made it through without drinking. I felt the pull. I looked at the fancy dessert wine that my mom would always buy just for us and thought, what's one drink. But I told myself ahead of time that I don't want to undo 5 months of neural rewiring. Let my brain keep doing its thing to fix itself. And I fucking didn't drink. Now I'm home and safe. Good luck to the rest of you still fighting. I did not drink with you today.
According to my comment history it's been over half a year since I checked in. And honestly that's awesome. I haven't felt a need to check in, in over half a year! Only randomly thought about it this morning in the shower and thought I'd pop over to my alt account to see how long it's been. Anyways, IWNDWYT!
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Going out for my birthday tonight. The menu has some reeaaallly nice dessert wines. Had a thought that I could have one. Just one. It's dessert. It's celebrating. But man I don't even want to tempt my brain and undo months neural rewriting. My mom will probably have a glass. I'm tempted to take a sip of hers to even see if I like it still. This long without alcohol I wonder if it would just taste off. Hmmm. Might be a struggle tonight. I'm going for a run, I'll work on convincing my brain not to do the stupid thing. I'm going to say it here too so I feel like I have to stick to it... IWNDWYT
You can do it!
My running brain told me that when I hit one year I'll want to honestly be able to say I haven't had alcohol for a year. So yeah, I've got this.
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I started working out when I quit drinking, but the thing I've been eyeing for 6 months now is indoor rock climbing. Problem is, I have no one to go with. I could go on my own, I'm used to doing that for most things... But it just seems like it'd be more fun with a partner. I've looked at phoenix and they have a meetup that does indoor climbing.... But I'm afraid I'm not "fit enough." Anyway thats what I'm holding myself back from. Not sure I'll reach out today, but maybe one day. IWNDWYT
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I turn 39 next Friday. It will be my first sober birthday in 20 years. Used to splurge on an Uber / cab so everyone could get hammered at the restaurant and not have to drive. These days I'm the designated driver. Also used to treat myself to a nice bottle of ice wine, something I'll seriously miss. But I'd rather miss my bottle of wine than another 20 years of my life. Congrats on making it through the party sober and happy birthday! Buy yourself something else and start a new tradition! IWNDWYT
In case your neighbor doesn't say it - congrats on being 6 weeks sober!! Also congrats from me too.
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This is a perfect post for me today. I'm on spring break, which in past years would have meant excessive drinking and every day spent recuperating and regretting. Then before I'd know it the week would be gone and I would be heading back to work wondering how it went so quick. Not this year. This year I'm enjoying the crap out of it. I'm going to get a massage, work out during the day time instead of at night, maybe sit by the pool, go to a show, clean my house... I have options that I will actually utilize. IWNDWYT
I weather changes better, that's for certain. Sleep better because I'm not drinking myself to sleep also, which I think helps the mindset. Related, I'm having a rough week. But coping. And sleeping. And not drinking. IWNDWYT
My cat has a tumor. I'm waiting on further analysis but the vet says the cells don't look good and it's in a difficult location for surgery. This week is going to be a struggle. But I have to remind myself that alcohol won't save him, nor will it save me. It'll just make me feel worse and miss out on the time I have left with him. IWNDWYT
It's pretty late to be checking in, but I just wanted to say I did not drink today. Got news at 4:30 that one of my cats most likely has cancer. Easily could have stopped on the way home to get a bottle. First time in a long time that I seriously had to fight that urge. It's just past 7pm now though, I've eaten way too much ice cream, and I'm in my PJs. So I'm safe. IWNDWYT
Felt like checking in today, been a bit. I spent last weekend wrangling a dozen teenagers for 4 days straight and I'm exhausted still. I can't imagine how much worse this week would have been if I was drinking. Or for that matter how I would have tried to sneak in alcohol last weekend while on a school trip, because that's the point I think I was at... Sober me makes much better decisions and cares about others much more. IWNDWYT
Took the day off because I'm mentally exhausted. Going to the gym for upper body day, then going for a run. Then I'm going to curl up on my couch in a blanket and not drink because that's my life now and I love it. IWNDWYT
Still checking in infrequently, still not drinking! Going strong. IWNDWYT
This was the first new years in ages that I actually made it to midnight. Every past year I've been passed out by 9 pm. And today I'm going for a casual 10k run. Because I do that now. Crazy. IWNDWYT
I have my first doctors appointment today. Haven’t been in 10 years. Figured it’s time to stop neglecting my health issues. Nervous because it will be the first time I say “I’m an alcoholic” out loud to someone. IWNDWYT
I almost burst out crying when I went in July (same situation, no doc visits for years and fresh in sobriety). She asked if I was using any program and I said nope on my own, and choked back the tears that I still don't understand why they came. Anyway I'd always rather know than not know, and lucky for me the blood work was good. Good luck today. IWNDWYT
I'm almost at 6 months free. I'm also going to a work happy hour thing tonight. I do not want to drink. I want to hang out for an hour or two, then go lift some weights. And so that's what I'm going to do. IWNDWYT
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I'm going to utilize my time efficiently and get some work done, at work! IWNDWYT
Check out smart recovery meetings too. They have multiple meetings a day online, and often focus more on tools you can use to quit and stay quit. Good luck tomorrow.
Welcome! Congratulations on day 3. Stick around for a bit, we're a supportive bunch!
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I did it! I made it through without drinking. I felt the pull. I looked at the fancy dessert wine that my mom would always buy just for us and thought, what's one drink. But I told myself ahead of time that I don't want to undo 5 months of neural rewiring. Let my brain keep doing its thing to fix itself. And I fucking didn't drink. Now I'm home and safe. Good luck to the rest of you still fighting. I did not drink with you today.