With that level of anxiety I would start, if you feel compelled to start at all, with 100mg microdoses every three days, Fadiman protocol. This will help you build comfort with the substance and it should help your anxiety and maybe lead you to a place where you are comfortable with a macro dose. It sounds like ultimately a reassessment of your relationship with reality might be good.
Man, you should look into taking some mushrooms. Life is weird and there are questions without answers, the only actual problem is that you're asking the question as a human from a human position while the universe isn't human orientated, you will never get a solid answer. But you can explore your route of thought and see where things end up. Reincarnation? Heaven?
You might want to read a book called "The Denial of Death" by Ernest Becker, or listen to the audiobook. He argues that there are two basic fears; the fear of life and the fear of death. He thinks it's important to figure out how these fears, which are grounded in the fact of the body's death, act in our lives.
i can totally relate. i think it’s called existential dread. but yeah your like holy fuck why am i alive and trapped in this existence
Shit I’m glad it’s not just me
With that level of anxiety I would start, if you feel compelled to start at all, with 100mg microdoses every three days, Fadiman protocol. This will help you build comfort with the substance and it should help your anxiety and maybe lead you to a place where you are comfortable with a macro dose. It sounds like ultimately a reassessment of your relationship with reality might be good.
This approach gets my vote.
100%
I feel the same thing when I smoke
Man, you should look into taking some mushrooms. Life is weird and there are questions without answers, the only actual problem is that you're asking the question as a human from a human position while the universe isn't human orientated, you will never get a solid answer. But you can explore your route of thought and see where things end up. Reincarnation? Heaven?
You might want to read a book called "The Denial of Death" by Ernest Becker, or listen to the audiobook. He argues that there are two basic fears; the fear of life and the fear of death. He thinks it's important to figure out how these fears, which are grounded in the fact of the body's death, act in our lives.