Penguino102

I restricted since 2nd Nov last year until January, and all in from zero from jan until now I'm gained total 12kg & overshoot ~5kg from pre ED weight. The first month of recovery my belly very puffy, and gained fast up to +/-5kg. I'm sure it just water weight. Dont worry keep eating

Thank you! It’s nice to know I’m not alone! 😭

I have before and I am now. Some days are better than others, but. The weight will re-distribute with time. At first the weight gathers to the stomach area because the body wants to protect vital organs and do massive repairs.

Thank you!!! :)

I completely understand how you feel. Just yesterday someone asked me if I was sick before and that’s why I was so thin. They told me that I look healthier and fuller now. I’m a month into recovery and have gained a significant amount of weight, but like you said I always tell myself it isn’t as noticeable as I think. This comment has been resonating in my mind since. And I had someone else tell me that I look younger now too. I wish people would stop focusing on weight, or at least stop commenting on it.

Thank you so much for sharing your experience!!

WOW, you are doing recovery right!! Honoring your hunger, eating regularly, and stopping exercise, go you!!! And I love that you are already starting to see some good effects like spending more time with friends and not obsessing over calories.

Thank you so much!! This helps so much more than you know! It’s been harder these past few days with the negative thoughts creeping into my mind, and my parents that keep on telling me that if I keep on eating too much at once my stomach is going to stretch out too much and I’m going to overshoot my weight and it’ll start the restrictive cycle all over again. Comments like these really help me see and think clearly. Thank you so much!!

oh absolutely. i genuinely did look pregnant & still sometimes do-- Tabitha talks a lot about this in her book & on her blog. it can take years for everything to normalize.

It freaks me out sometimes because I’ve been like this for a week and I’m scared the bloating is never going to go down. I feel so self conscious right now.

this happened to me too. water retention is crazyyyyyy sometimes. there's no quick fix! trying to "flush it out" usually just makes things worse. the best thing you can do is give your body the time, rest, & nutrition it so desperately craves!

I know I keep on saying thank you, but seriously THANK YOU!! You have no one’s how comforting and helpful you advice and experience are! :)

if i know anything about extreme hunger, it's that nothing about it will ever feel normal to you, since everyone's experiences w/ it are varied.

Thank you so much!! 😭🙏

Yes, extreme hunger can come and go at any point, often on one day and off the next.

Thank you so much for this! This is the advice/reassurance I needed! I’ve been dealing with so much guilt today for eating despite not being hungry, especially since when I do eat I feel like it’s a lot and usually chips or cereal since it’s the easiest. Thank you SOO much! 😭❤️

yes!! my hunger cues were also incredibly unstable. i also couldn't tell when i was hungry, which is why mechanical eating is so important. i often wouldn't feel hungry until i started eating, & then my hunger was insatiable. disorganized hunger cues are normal! in recovery from an ED, there is never a case when you "shouldn't" or "don't need to" eat.

It’s so nice to hear other people’s experiences! It’s so weird because I don’t really even get hungry when I’m eating, it’s more like I get the thought “welli could eat this or that right now”, or it’s like I want myself to be hungry if that makes sense. I feel like a part of me wants to have extreme hunger, which may be my body telling me in hungry but my disorder still looking for validation to eat. I don’t know, IT’S WEIRD.

this is exactly how i am too, but it's just my ED trying to give me an excuse to not eat. if you think you should eat, you should. if you're thinking about food, you should eat. if you don't think you've eaten enough, you should eat. if you're watching food videos, you should eat. mental hunger is real. it's scientifically proven that, when our bodies don't have enough energy to send us physical hunger cues, they will send us mental hunger cues. we have to listen to these cues to get our physical cues back. if you want to have extreme hunger, you do have extreme hunger. you are valid. give in.

Thank you so much! You have no idea how helpful al if this is! It’s nice to know this isn’t just me 😭

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I’m having a similar issue. I have been eating the same, if not slightly less and started running and doing cardio three times a week. I gained 10 pounds in one month. I still fit into my jeans but they are more snug and my abdomen looks bloated. I don’t get why I’m gaining weight when I should be losing weight.

I don’t have a sister, but my mom has always talked about how she was super thin when she was young. I’ve always been fuller than her and gain weight easier, so looking back I realize how much it affected me to hear my mom going on about how she was skinny. She wouldn’t tear me down because of my weight or anything (she always hated being thin), but I don’t think she realized how much it has/continues to hurt me.

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HAHAHA I didn't but now I did, lmao. Now I just want Winston dancing to it, popping his booty on "back back back back back" and doing handbells.

Yes!! Winston would kill it!!

omg i just listened to it that’s so funny it’s so similar😭😭😭

The first time I heard it I couldn’t help but laugh 😂😂

This is off topic, but I love everyone’s voices. They sound so professional.

I don’t have Instagram, has anyone close to Ariel and Ned posted anything referencing this whole situation today? Like Becky, YB, etc.?

If you look Alexandria up online her work history comes up, she worked as a production manager at Buzzfeed.

The mature adults in your life are wise. Focus on yourself, don't waste your energy paying attention at what he's doing and who is dating. Cry if you need to, but then go out with your friends, focus on whatever you're passionate about, dare to dream and make new plans just for you and it will hurt less and less until you're over it.

Thank you so much! I wish I had listened to them at the beginning because I’d be over him more by now. I’ll try to do that, because I’m just so tired of all of this. I just want to get over it by now, so thank you so much!

I’m sorry about your feelings. The only advice i can tell you is you are not the first or the last one who is gonna feel that. Just accept your new situation, dont deny it and be concious you’ll recover for that and you will be ok again.

Thank you! I really appreciate it! I know I was all over the place, which was really dumb of me but I can’t really do anything about that now. Thank you so much though.

Here are things I’ve learned so far (time helps give you perspective so I’m sure I’m going to see things differently in a little).

For me it’s “Glimpse Of Us” by Joji. My ex had a playlist on Spotify for me and for about a week he moved that song to the top. I thought it meant he still loved me (we left things for the future, if anything were to happen between us), turns out he was talking to another girl and I guess that song was describing how he felt in the moment. He has since deleted the playlist for me and made some for her, I’m pretty sure they’re dating. Whenever I hear that song it just makes my stomach hurt because it reminds me that he has moved on and doesn’t want me anymore.

I feel the same way, and in my case its very simillar.

I’m so sorry about that. No one deserves to be treated like that or to feel that way. 🥺

I did at first. I’m not going to lie at first I hated the idea of dating anyone but my ex. Now I’m a little bit better, which I’m so glad about because that shows that I’ve made some progress. I mean, I just got my first celebrity crush after the breakup. I know that sounds dumb, but I have had zero interest in guys. Even guys I used to find cute I don’t think are appealing. I still have a very long way to go, but I’ve made a tiny bit of progress.

Thank you 🥹

I have different moments where I’m mad and sad. So when I’m sad:

The first few notes get me crying already☠️

It’s the song I ugly cry to at night 😂

I am going to his show august 19th can’t fucking wait! Have you heard “ the yawning grave” or “I lied” ahhhhhh this man has my whole heart and soul

I haven’t but I’m going to now, thank you so much for the recommendations! 🙃

Don’t do it, I wish I hadn’t done this. I broke no contract and as a result he led me on, thinking we might get back together one day. I stupidly believed him, but now he’s talking to (likely dating another girl). I’m back at square one in my healing process. And the thing is that once you break no contract it can become like an addiction and you want to continue contacting them, which isn’t going to help you in any way.

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I’m so sorry you’re in this position, it sucks. But seriously, it’s better to keep your distance from them because that will help you more in the long run. Even if it feels like you’re dying right now, in the future you will be grateful for having self control because you’ll save yourself more suffering unlike me.

My favorite is One Piece. It’s very long, but once you get into it it’s so good!

Went 7 months, got reset when he came around again. The worst part was that it was the best month I’d experienced in a long ass time, even before when we were together. Two weeks ago, he broke it off again.

I hate it when they do this. Something similar just happened to me and I’m going through a mad phase of why couldn’t he just leave me alone? I would’ve been more healed by now.

I completely understand. I’m going through a similar situation. Just knowing that he’s already with someone else paralyzes me. It’s so hard and I’m so tired of feeling this way, I just wish I could skip to the feeling at least slightly better part.

My advice to you is think logically, even if you don’t want to. The exact same thing happened to me. A month after my ex broke up with me he started texting me these huge paragraphs about how he made the biggest mistake of his life and wanted to get back together. I told him that if anything were to happen it’d be in the future and he said he’d wait whatever amount of time. Four months later (likely less) he found another girl and is most likely dating her. Deep down I knew I couldn’t believe or trust him, but I fooled myself into thinking that he just had a lapse of judgement. Now I’m in the worst pain and anguish I’ve ever experienced. I’ve lost over 20 pounds, can’t sleep, have severe anxiety (that I’m now taking medication for), and my depression is at an all time low. He stirred up all my emotions when I was okayish just because that’s what he wanted in the moment. He was so incredibly selfish. I wish I could go back and stop myself from being so dumb, but unfortunately I can’t. So just think logically about everything, especially her. I know it’s hard but please be smarter than me. You just hurt yourself so much more in the end.

Thank you for that and I hope all the best on your journey as well. She was the one who dumped me and I told her multiple times I cannot be friends with her. So I think I’m just gonna keep on healing and don’t hope for it but if she wants to get back together then I’ll cross that bridge if ever happens.

Well, everyone’s experience is different so just see what it truly best for you. Our emotions and loneliness can make us kind of desperate (for a lack of better words). So when we see that slight opening we take hold on to it. Maybe I’m just paranoid because of what I’m going through, but just be careful. And keep your eyes open for any red flags that indicate she’s not serious about you. The sooner you see that, if that’s the case, the better.